Walk wait stay

Ill let the tears fall down my face, one more time. Go to bed cold and alone wake up and start again, with little sleep I had because the clouds rolled in and flooded my mind with questions I have no answers for. Im sorry for everything thats happened and all the things ive said, Im not sure how to get over this! Patience and a little time and we will get out of this, I promise. Shooting stars across the cold dark sky, in my midnight get away and wished for giddy things and no more lies. Wipe my tears again and head back to bed that once held warmth and comfort, I sit up on the edge walk over and put on your sweatshirt the one with the cigarette burn from the night we had to much wine, and the cologne that swept me off my feet.. Im sorry, ill be fine. Somewhere in the back of my mind I held a little hope, It was all the little things that were done, and everything we been through keeps me waiting, but for how much longer..? The battle continues, the list of sacrafices get longer, million more tears to come. Tally O dear bleader

Home sweet.... Home ?

Days off, Therefor I will put on my gear, grab my sword and head into this battle and hope I survive and in the end I find my reward, even a pat on the back I'm fine with. I'm sick with apprehension, I happy and healthy living and dieing so sick tired of trying. What more can we do, both rich and poor wondering what we are living for? 

Tally-oh dear beans 

Remember to remember

Smell the roses, look up and just breathe for one second, and remember where you are.. The past few months and a year had been heck, I almost forgot what It was like to really just enjoy the wind in your hair and sun kissing your skin, the snow fall on your face. Its the little things that are the most enjoyable, I forgot about it and the whole time I've been searching high and low for answers and all along it... was right beneath my feet. How could I forget my roots and where I come from, get lost in the negativity of this cruel world we created. Im learning to become more content with my life even if things aren't the greatest right now, a simple walk and the silence is all I need to continue on in my life and just live. For the rest of the year, Ill learn to accept everything that happens and know that there's nothing I can do about it but move on and remember where I am! Be 100% thankful and greatful im waking up every morning with those who mean the world to me and oxygen in my lungs, roof over our head, food in the fridge and clothes on our bodies. Change of thought change of life.